writing to write

i'm not going out this weekend. i have a cold.

that's not really the main reason. i want more me time so that i can rest and workout. i want to improve my health.

i have been smoking since i was 16. i'm now in my early 30's.

in my 14-25 years, i was an avid workoutholic. i was built quite durably. it was a very simple way of getting attention and helped out lots on my inner game/confidence.

it wasn't until i got hooked on a stupid morpg did i stop working out. those 2.5 years spent on it reduced me to being very weak. i hate it.

i use to pride myself on my endurance. i could push out more pushups, run a bit more, and throw a bit further than my friends. now i suck. got full mounted and strangled last time i wrestled. eww, it's going to be on my mind forever.

have to be strong, fast and smart.