kimberly

i love women.

i could fall in love in a matter of minutes with some. this weekend, i fell in love with one, "lydia." she was just the perfect height, 5'6". she had the perfect smile, the type of smile that shows off all her teeth. a great body, beautiful and shinny skin that captures all ambient lighting and reflects them from the perfect curves on her body.

we spoke,
we compared our skin by pressing our forearms to each other,
we looked deeply into each other's eyes,
we imagined what it would be like to kiss.
we pressed our lips,
noses to cheeks,
lips to necks,
hands in hair, on necks, backs, hips,
the intimacy removed any clothing.

when i left her in the morning, we did not get one bit of sleep the whole night. i stood over her, and tried my best to capture what she looked like in my mind. i'm leaving and i'll never see her again. she offered me her phone number, but i think i allowed my face to betray her.

she knew i wouldn't call.

i wasn't a Gemini, i wasn't born close to midnight, i didn't want to leave everything behind and start over somewhere far away, i had a great girlfriend in high school, and would very much doubt that i would have asked her to winter formal.

those words i spoke at the beginning betrayed my emotions. i need to tell her how good it is to see her again, how much i have missed her, but those lies.

dance floor

statement: i'm not an agile person.

friday night, local club, on the dance floor with two girls. dark room with slow flashing light. other dancing bodies around us to create a private dance floor. the other people create rhythmic walls encompassing my private dance space. it was fun. like being in my old party state once again.

it has been years since i have had fun on the dance floor. two girls one guy. made it work just like any other activity. engaged one, encourage her to integrate the other, move on to the other but with a little more intimacy/sexiness. more direct eye contact, eye body, more suggestive body movements, and bring the other girl back in to the mix. push and pull once again, rinse repeat.

get the girls to have fun with you, to want to take turns being close to you.

then, take a step back, set the moves on autopilot.

i took a good look as i turned in a circle. sure as heck, other girls who made up the wall to my dance floor became shy spectators. i had a great time.